A new beginning and something that never ends

It took me a while to say yes to meet up with the pilot. After the break-up issue with my ex, I am not really ready to see anyone but I know I have to move on.

I went to a speed dating yesterday evening but I didn't go in. I don't see anyone at all and I spent my time with my sister and my best friend, Anna at the opposite site of the venue. Maybe I wasn't ready or perhaps I still believe I can find someone in the old fashion way though it never did me good.

We had wonderful dinner. Just the three of us with so much laughters, cries and most importantly both of them were there for me. While eating I had a phone call from the pilot. He wanted to see me and without any hesitation I said yes. We haven't met for nearly two years. You see, I'm the loyal type, I always knew the pilot likes me a lot but I was in a relationship and I would never do anything to jeopardize the relationship. But last night I realized I'm a free woman and so I said yes.

My heart beats like it never did before, fast and slow at the same time. Maybe I was nervous of seeing him, someone who always has a place in my heart..someone who believes in me and take me as what I am.

We had a nice chat over drinks and I felt that I was missing him all these while. He always there for me whenever I needed someone. He looked just the same as the first time I set my eyes on him. I was still grieving over the break-up with my ex but the pilot made me feel that there are someone else better for me. He just knew his words and the best moment when he hugged me tightly and I can feel so much love from him. I can never have him all by myself. And I'm not going to get into a relationship where I have to share him with his wife. We both have this great mutual understanding that left unspoken, we just knew what we are feeling inside.

I've known him for 5 years. He is always there to comfort me and to make me feel good about myself, something I need from a man. He stayed for two hours and that was the two most beautiful two hours I ever had.

I texted him when he left to thank him for being there for me.

As a true officer and a gentleman, he replied:
"The honor is mine and you looked as beautiful as always."

And with that words, he made me realized that I can love again.

I was taken on a 'ride' in a helli by the major and it doesn't have to involve the sky. :)