Blood Ties

I promised not to dwell again on my sickness but what I am going to write is not a description of the thing I'm suffering from.

You can call me over sensitive or emotional or whatever but this particular incident happened really made me think hard of what exactly lies behind the 'blood' bond we share for the rest of our lives.

I posted a comment in our family group in Facebook called Mat&Esah. The name was taken from our late grandparents' names, Mamat and Esah. It is a close group which means only those related to the two great people can be in the group. All the cousins, nieces, nephews, in laws joined in and we updated about ourselves and sharing some gossips and announcing news and so on. I set up the group because few of us live outside the country and only through one common interest we can be together.

My posting few days ago was about my new found sickness. The reason why I announced it was because I wanted all of them to have a check-up because one of the reasons why I have diabetes is because of genes. I care and love them so much that I don't want them to suffer and to go through a strict 'procedure' to make sure I can still live one more day.

Guess what? no one, I repeat, no one replied! funny isn't it? most of them on Facebook all the time but NO ONE ever said something, not even some support or encouragments. I got one comment/encouragement from my nephew but through other channel and another support through email from my second cousin and both got to know through my blog and my tagline. I have many well wishes and supports from everyone except from my relatives. How sick is that?

Talking about relatives....hmmm.....I can spend days to try to close the chapter. I love them but there are few just totally stuck-up and poyoh! Gosh sometimes I feel like just choke them and move on. Some are snobbish and the snobbish ones are not the wealthiest one. If you know my family, you know what I'm talking about. Some think they have perfect family with adorable children(yuks!), some think they earn good enough to feel they are totally better than others, some are spoilt, some having big mouths, some having brains of a 5 years old kid and some just simply annoying.

Imagine I have a 27years old cousin who had 3 wives! of course divorced, married, divorce, married and now he is going to marry the 3rd one and she's just the same, pain the the bloody fucking ass! a divorcee! not because she is a divorcee that I don't like her but the attitude of leaving your children with the maid while you are out having fun with that idiot cousin of mine ALL THE TIME?? She's asking RM2,000 per month from the stupid cousin and he said ok. My cousin is a car salesman ONLY. Get the picture?

Oh another cousin, he's 50 years old. Divorce for a very long time and finally found a single 38 years old girl, never been married and they plan to do so end of the year. Best part? she asked for RM10,000 as dowry and my ever stupid motherfucker cousin said yes and you know what he does for living? Pembakar Sate. Listen, Pembakar Sate, not owner of that Sate shop! and he can't even pay for his son's medical bill that cost only RM100! Now RM10,000 and ok? Worst part, they both are my dad's nephew and being the only boy in his family, all my aunties look up to my dad and my dad is 67 and how much can he handle stuff?

My parents constantly busy on these two idiot matters coz my aunties always updating news and I hate it. The damn fuckers have their family and my dad has his own and that always cost my dad having headache and stress and I hate it!

I slowly distant myself from the relatives. Many of them are so fake and very kaki mengampu. This from my mom's side. I can't watch anymore those dramas. It makes me wanna puke.