Little Dee

My very good friend just gave birth two days ago. All my friends have at least a kid and one of them actually has 7 kids!

It makes me think about what Dr. Delila, my gyneacologist told me a year and the half ago that I have zero chance to have my own babies. Some stupid eggs just refused to be functioned. I was on hormon pills after the operation and she said I was a perfect woman but just weeks after she broke the news that I'm in fertile.

So I'm not perfect. I've learned to accept that facts but when I heard about my friend's delivery, something came to my mind. I really need to find alternative ways to cure this problem because I am so so much wanting to have my little ones. Someone that looks just like me.

I got few people trying to help me to find the medication for this and I used to push them away but this time I think I seriously need to give it a try. I need to have my little Dee, at least for once.

I'm going for 'berurut' next weekend and I'm not gonna stop until I am confident that I am destined to be childless.

Pray for me, please.