Being 'Dumped'

I got back from Jakarta on last Saturday and it was planned that we will meet again on the 10th. Which supposed to be like 6 days away but yesterday I received a phone called from him telling me that he can't make it due to a very important meeting he has to attend on Monday...and my birthday will be on Tuesday.

I'm not sure of how I feel but certainly I do feel very dissapointed. I've planned every single thing from the first day he arrives to the last day before he flies home.

I know very well this meeting means everything to him. He has been working on it for months and this will determine his future career and his future life/

I am sad. I can't hide it. I really can't hide it. Last year I celebrated it with close friends after being dumped and was hoping this year will be different. I don't want a big party or a party for that matter. I just need his presence.

I am trying hard to be understanding and supportive towards him. I'm his biggest fan and always support him in everything but I must admit this time around I am so so so sad that it turns out to be this way.

This is what I hate when being in love. You have expectation and you can easily get sensitive over things unneccessarily. My good friend Ena told me that I'm being over sensitive about this and perhaps she's right but what she doesn't know is that I need him more than I ever needed anyone else.

Have a great birthday D.