Believe Me

Do you realize that sometimes the things that came to you were the things you once prayed before once upon a time? I realized that lately. It is almost frightening. It was like everything you wished for were slowly been granted by the special Force.

Lord knows I've been through the worst hell ever created on earth. The tears that fell from my eyes were just enough to fill up a lake. The pain in the heart that was hurt for so many time were just something that no words can definied it clearly. But He also grants me the most powerful weapon ever invented - Patience.

Sometimes I wonder how the hell I ever gone this far? am I not human at all that I can swallowed all these all these years? but you know what? it's worth it. :)

There are so many changes in my life currently. The process was painful and sometimes I almost given up but I think the streght I have is from my parents's prayers day and night for me and I managed to go through it.

When I am in new path now then I realized it wasn't that hard actually. The first step will always be the hardest but if you have the guts to take it, the rest of the road is all yours. It's gonna be winding but it's a worth journey to travel in.

Now slowly I can see things clearly. I saw the view of the once a wished. I can't believe my eyes, my mind but yes it is coming through. One by one. It's like watching a Back To The Future series.

I sat down one night in the room while having my cigaratte and suddenly I had the goosebumps all over my body. I was thinking about the whole changes in me and when this particular image appeared on my mind, I almost fainted because gosh it was exactly as I wanted from day 1.

I started to open my eyes wider and watching every step of the way every single day. was still closing the most sensitive organ in my body and pushing away all the possibilities that could finally make me the happiest woman alive because I was just too scared that it is happening and I can't believe it IS HAPPENING TO ME!! TO ME!

I lost it. There's no other energy or force that is greater than PRAYERS.

and folks, u GOT TO BELIEVE ME!