The Pilot

The pilot called me today.

He called last Thursday but the phone was cut off but he called me today!!! we spoke for a while on what had happened to me and he was ever very supportive and always know how to talk to me.

I met him some 5 years ago, at a golf club. Then I met him again at the club near the golf club. He was always with Captain R. I was very reserved that time and the most I dare to do in a club was smile and nothing more. And so we smile and smile for weeks until one day he came to say Hi.

I was with my ex best friend and she always the friendlier one. She talked to the pilot all the time from that day onwards and everytime I looked at them talking, I saw the pilot's eyes always on me and always managed to squeeze a quick smile while listening to my friend talking.

I must admit he is a very attractive guy. I must say that he's my kind of guy. Tall, fair, small eyes, very steady, secure, cool and brilliant profession. But there's only 1 thing that stopped me from imagining myself being beside him....I'll tell you later.

Our 'relationship' progressed gradually and slowly and I love every minute of it. He is not the type that very impatient or those typical Malay guys that like to show off. Maybe the age factor plays an important role in this. He's very cool and we sort of have that mutual understanding between us. He always says the right thing at the right time. He was so supportive of me when I was in China. Constantly asking if I was ok. Even at certain extend he helped me financially. I never asked but he just knew I was having difficult time and he just came and be the silent hero.

We don't talk all the time or meet up all the time but most of the time if any of us wished to see each other, we will make time for that. We don't even have any sexual experiences with each other though it's so tempting and being a Pilot, oh mind you, he was a Fighter Pilot, not commercial pilot, with that kind of built, who could resist? ok ok I'm only human and I have desire too alright? but nothing happened between us. Nothing more then sitting closely and enjoying each other companies.

He called to ask if I'm doing ok and how I'm dealing with the 'new life'. He said he'll make some time for me next week to see me. The last time I met him? hmm...2 years ago. Since I came back from China for good, I never really have the chance to see him. I did wait for him last month in Subang but he was tied up with something that could not be avoided and so I left.

I don't know what to expect but I do know I miss him so much. I miss the way he teasing me, the way he advices me, the way he hugs me and the way he looked at me without uttering a word. We never said out our feelings, we just knew. :) The feeling is so good. But I know my limit and I'm a woman.

I would devote my life for him if I can..

..if only he's not a married man.