The Decision

I posted a tagline yesterday on how I had to make a career decision by this noon.

I've made the decision yesterday and I just got the result today, just a minute ago. I am over qualified!!! *sigh

It was a Chinese Language course at Beijing Foreigh Studies University in Beijing. This is to facilite the company's expansion of business opportunities in China. It is to educate the company's employees in the language and culture to enable them to liase with businesses in China and comprehend Chinese business practices. It is my ultimate dream to be back in China!!!!! but I AM TOO QUALIFIED as the management put it.

You see, I speak the language fluently with two different dialect. I was based in China for a year and experienced the culture and the people the working environment. So I should give the chance to other colleagues!!! what a total bummer!!! Beijing University is THE university in China. People could commit suicide if they fail to enrol in the university. That's how prestigious the university is!!! *sigh. The company needs someone with low knowledge of the language ONLY!!!!

I think I should propose to be a tutor of Chinese Language to the employees, that would make things even better. A Chinese speaking Malay teaching non chinese speaking Chinese!!!! that's awesome.

Ok, I'll shall propose it now.

Bye Beijing. I'll be back.

Joy

My sister just called me to let me know the Swedish guy she met last week asked her out for a date tonight. She sound like a kid who just got a lollipop from daddy. I am so happy for her and I've met this guy personally, so far he's kind of polite and cool. Aren't all Swedish like that? lol

The word is patient. She suffered a lot. Being foolishly in love with some idiots, played by bastards and I don't want to speak too soon about this Johann guy but I'm thankful that he finally asked her out.

My sister is happy and deep inside me I am happier for her.
Love you Myrna. Always and have fun. :)

Assistant

To those who are worried that I might not concentrate on my work, don't worry about it ok. I have to admit it effected my concentration on my work but I am lucky that I have assistant that I can rely on.

I am at work and no intention of taking any leaves in the near future. I tend to work and work though I don't have my full heart in the office.

I know I might get into hot soup if I don't get a grip but I can assure you that God's willing, I should be ok soon.

Thank you.

A Friend

I met a high school friend this evening. We had a chat and I'm so glad we talked about a lot of things and she helped me to look at things differently and taught me how to handle situations that seems to meet a dead end to me.

She said: 'Deyna, he is having the biggest lost in this break-up because he let someone who loves him so much go.'

Damn I feel good!

Thank you Sin Loy for helping me to bring back my confidence and helping to realize that I am absofuckinglutely a better person.

Cheers. :)

A new beginning and something that never ends

It took me a while to say yes to meet up with the pilot. After the break-up issue with my ex, I am not really ready to see anyone but I know I have to move on.

I went to a speed dating yesterday evening but I didn't go in. I don't see anyone at all and I spent my time with my sister and my best friend, Anna at the opposite site of the venue. Maybe I wasn't ready or perhaps I still believe I can find someone in the old fashion way though it never did me good.

We had wonderful dinner. Just the three of us with so much laughters, cries and most importantly both of them were there for me. While eating I had a phone call from the pilot. He wanted to see me and without any hesitation I said yes. We haven't met for nearly two years. You see, I'm the loyal type, I always knew the pilot likes me a lot but I was in a relationship and I would never do anything to jeopardize the relationship. But last night I realized I'm a free woman and so I said yes.

My heart beats like it never did before, fast and slow at the same time. Maybe I was nervous of seeing him, someone who always has a place in my heart..someone who believes in me and take me as what I am.

We had a nice chat over drinks and I felt that I was missing him all these while. He always there for me whenever I needed someone. He looked just the same as the first time I set my eyes on him. I was still grieving over the break-up with my ex but the pilot made me feel that there are someone else better for me. He just knew his words and the best moment when he hugged me tightly and I can feel so much love from him. I can never have him all by myself. And I'm not going to get into a relationship where I have to share him with his wife. We both have this great mutual understanding that left unspoken, we just knew what we are feeling inside.

I've known him for 5 years. He is always there to comfort me and to make me feel good about myself, something I need from a man. He stayed for two hours and that was the two most beautiful two hours I ever had.

I texted him when he left to thank him for being there for me.

As a true officer and a gentleman, he replied:
"The honor is mine and you looked as beautiful as always."

And with that words, he made me realized that I can love again.

I was taken on a 'ride' in a helli by the major and it doesn't have to involve the sky. :)