Waiting

I hate waiting and my heart beats so fast! wtf!

Not another heartache please. Gosh I've been pampered too much all these while.

:(

Love Actually

I was told to watch this movie years ago but I never really watched it because the title alone scares me. But late afternoon yesterday while I was cleaning my desktop in the office suddenly I found this movie and somehow I had that strong urged to watch it and man I should have watched it years ago!

Folks, if you haven't watched it, please do so and preferably watch it alone so that you will understand the whole meaning of love and what people would do to feel love and it often comes in a way you never ever could imagined.

There's one particular statement that I would love to re-quote in this movie and it says:


"Whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world, I think about the arrivals gate at Heathrow Airport. General opinion's starting to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. It seems to me that love is everywhere. Often it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but it's always there – fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge – they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around."

Yes, love is actually all around :)
Cheers!


p/s: please do watch this movie.

Believe Me

Do you realize that sometimes the things that came to you were the things you once prayed before once upon a time? I realized that lately. It is almost frightening. It was like everything you wished for were slowly been granted by the special Force.

Lord knows I've been through the worst hell ever created on earth. The tears that fell from my eyes were just enough to fill up a lake. The pain in the heart that was hurt for so many time were just something that no words can definied it clearly. But He also grants me the most powerful weapon ever invented - Patience.

Sometimes I wonder how the hell I ever gone this far? am I not human at all that I can swallowed all these all these years? but you know what? it's worth it. :)

There are so many changes in my life currently. The process was painful and sometimes I almost given up but I think the streght I have is from my parents's prayers day and night for me and I managed to go through it.

When I am in new path now then I realized it wasn't that hard actually. The first step will always be the hardest but if you have the guts to take it, the rest of the road is all yours. It's gonna be winding but it's a worth journey to travel in.

Now slowly I can see things clearly. I saw the view of the once a wished. I can't believe my eyes, my mind but yes it is coming through. One by one. It's like watching a Back To The Future series.

I sat down one night in the room while having my cigaratte and suddenly I had the goosebumps all over my body. I was thinking about the whole changes in me and when this particular image appeared on my mind, I almost fainted because gosh it was exactly as I wanted from day 1.

I started to open my eyes wider and watching every step of the way every single day. was still closing the most sensitive organ in my body and pushing away all the possibilities that could finally make me the happiest woman alive because I was just too scared that it is happening and I can't believe it IS HAPPENING TO ME!! TO ME!

I lost it. There's no other energy or force that is greater than PRAYERS.

and folks, u GOT TO BELIEVE ME!

Book section

I was given this book to read by a colleague. Little that I know it was actually been read by few other colleagues in the office. It took me few months to finish this book because this is one the books that really made me think real hard after each chapter. The title is kind of 'scary' when I first looked at it. It gave me the impression that my colleague was trying to preach..but I took it with an opened heart and I must say that this is one book that helps me to not be afraid of who I am and being proud of myself and the best part is that I found that there are people who have doubts about few things in life like me and curious about so many thing that are happening around us. It tells me that I'm not alone.

I read this book much earlier than I'M WITH CUPID but it took me later to finish reading this because I had to repeat it everytime I finished each chapter. This is one of the best books I've ever read.


Enjoy.
:)

I'm With Cupid

Hi folks.

I felt lost without the laptop but I guess it's time for me to continue to do my reading more often now and so my latest book is called I'm With Cupid by Diane Stingley.

Again I recommend my friends to read it, especially the girls. This book is talking about the daily life of a girl who is searching for true love and all the feelings and anxiety and excitement clearly described in this book and I can feel that all the butterflies in my stomach and the extra fast heartbeat are normal and that I am definitely not alone.

Enjoy the book. :)